My life.

Well the Wedding planning is at a halt right now. Really I have done nothing but throw around ideas at this point. I wonder if financially ia June Wedding is possible. We shall see. Scott has moved in with me its been wonderful so far. I don't know what i would do with out him in my life. He drives me crazy yet I still want to hold his hand, kiss him, hug him. Every day is better then the last. We have virtually no money and it does not matter. Sure i still worry about things but he is teaching to be patient, to just let things go. I love him with all my heart.

The apartment is still a mess boxes everywhere. I can't seem to make them go away and just when I get close I find another one. Its like my organization skills have failed me. I am still self conscious about life and where its going. I worry that i might not ever have the money to go back to school. I think that I am too personal to be a teacher. By personal I mean I take things to heart. My emotions get in the way. I don't want to stay at Winco forever but I don't think I will make a good teacher. I wish I could look into the future just a little to see where my life is heading. However if I did that then where is the fun in life? I like knowing that there is and unknown out there. Scott was an unknown. best thing to ever happen to me!

Mary comes home today I can't wait to see her. 13 years of ups and downs and friends and she is still me number 1 girl. she'll be here in two hours after I post this post.